Lost in Oblivion

Thursday, April 06, 2006

You make me cry,
You make me weep,
You are the cause of my plight

How can you expect me to be present for you always everytime, evrywhere? You want me to be by your side, you want me to be omnipresent in your life. Then you have a choice between GOD, the Almighty or your own shadow. Because I know of sure being a very seflish person, I wont be present for you always.

With is the kind behaviour that you project I do not want to be posessed by your obssession. I have my own life that of course is ruled by everyone starting from YOU, my father. Coming to my father, he has given me everything and some where I feel I am going against him for YOU. I feel that I have betrayed him. Then still you accuse me of not supporting you. What I get in return is your sweet rudeness and your empty sarcasms.

Why should I want be with you. You being a very intelligent person, you yourself must have realised that I am running away from you, avoiding you. I will hate myself for typing this, but you surely do get on to my nerves with all the piercing questions. Am I being very sensitive here?

If you have had a bad day, you have nobody else in this city to talk to, you have no where to vent you emotions (leave alone trying to control them), to top it all - I am busy then what do you do? You call me up shout, argue, question and you are hell bent to downgrade me in my own eyes.

If you have already decided something for me, what are you asking me for approval?

If you do not like somethingabout me, or something I have that I cant let go, then why are you present in an negative aura?